1 00:00:06,006 --> 00:00:08,008 [upbeat music playing] 2 00:00:10,301 --> 00:00:12,679 [DJ on radio] Good morning, simulation farmers. 3 00:00:12,762 --> 00:00:16,766 This is the Pyromoth keeping you warm on the Ribbon and cool in your heart. 4 00:00:17,809 --> 00:00:20,020 This just in from Magistrate Hoops: 5 00:00:20,103 --> 00:00:23,356 "Be careful downloading unverified emoji packs. 6 00:00:23,440 --> 00:00:26,818 Many contain spoofs, hacks, and viruses." 7 00:00:26,985 --> 00:00:28,111 {\an8}-And now a track... -[barking] 8 00:00:28,194 --> 00:00:31,239 {\an8}...from Clint Smith's new album, Sponge Cake Summer. 9 00:00:31,740 --> 00:00:33,575 [grunting] 10 00:00:33,658 --> 00:00:35,368 -[audio stuttering] -[groaning] 11 00:00:35,452 --> 00:00:36,453 [squealing] 12 00:00:36,536 --> 00:00:38,288 -There's no such thing as... -[audio stutters] 13 00:00:38,371 --> 00:00:40,248 -Thank you for having me! -[rewinding] 14 00:00:40,331 --> 00:00:41,458 Thank you for having me! 15 00:00:41,541 --> 00:00:42,375 [rewinding] 16 00:00:42,459 --> 00:00:45,128 [computer] Master, I have something I need to show you over here 17 00:00:45,211 --> 00:00:47,380 if I could just have a moment of your time. 18 00:00:47,464 --> 00:00:48,506 Maybe in a second. 19 00:00:48,590 --> 00:00:51,426 I'm messing around with this new emoji pack I downloaded. 20 00:00:51,593 --> 00:00:53,219 It's badass. Look at that. 21 00:00:53,303 --> 00:00:55,180 -Huh. -[bird chirping] 22 00:00:55,680 --> 00:00:56,681 Love emojis. 23 00:00:57,474 --> 00:00:58,975 [chirping] 24 00:00:59,059 --> 00:01:01,352 -[light rock music playing] -[Clancy sighs] 25 00:01:01,436 --> 00:01:03,146 [chirping continues] 26 00:01:03,229 --> 00:01:04,397 -Hmm. -[computer beeps] 27 00:01:04,481 --> 00:01:06,524 Fucking upload it, you fucking shitbags. 28 00:01:06,608 --> 00:01:08,610 [computer beeps] 29 00:01:08,693 --> 00:01:10,320 [scoffs] What the fuck? 30 00:01:10,403 --> 00:01:12,655 -[engine grinds] -[computer beeping] 31 00:01:13,531 --> 00:01:16,159 -[computer] Good morning, Clancy. -[Clancy] Good morning, Computer. 32 00:01:16,242 --> 00:01:18,161 [computer] Which universe will you choose today? 33 00:01:18,661 --> 00:01:21,372 Uh... this one, this world. 34 00:01:21,456 --> 00:01:23,500 -[beeping] -[Clancy] What? 35 00:01:23,583 --> 00:01:25,126 -[rooster crowing] -[dance music playing] 36 00:01:25,210 --> 00:01:27,045 Deactivate. Deactivate pop-up. 37 00:01:27,128 --> 00:01:29,422 {\an8}Deactivate pop-up now! 38 00:01:29,506 --> 00:01:32,300 [computer] It's difficult to concentrate when you're being yelled at... 39 00:01:32,717 --> 00:01:33,843 by a friend. 40 00:01:33,927 --> 00:01:34,761 [groans] 41 00:01:34,844 --> 00:01:39,224 Okay, just please deactivate pop-up. 42 00:01:39,307 --> 00:01:40,934 What-- what-- And decline. 43 00:01:41,518 --> 00:01:44,687 [computer] Avatar purchase accepted. 44 00:01:44,771 --> 00:01:45,605 Fuck! 45 00:01:45,688 --> 00:01:48,942 [computer] Are you into this song? Are you into the driving bass line? 46 00:01:49,025 --> 00:01:52,445 Do you hear the sound of the hoofed one in the forest, Master? 47 00:01:52,779 --> 00:01:54,572 Do... you... Mast-- 48 00:01:54,656 --> 00:01:56,241 -[music stops] -[computer winding down] 49 00:01:56,616 --> 00:01:58,535 [modem dialing] 50 00:01:58,618 --> 00:01:59,744 [high-pitched tone ringing] 51 00:01:59,828 --> 00:02:00,870 [buzzing] 52 00:02:00,954 --> 00:02:03,081 [whirring] 53 00:02:03,164 --> 00:02:06,459 [computer] Good morning, Clancy. Which universe will you choose today? 54 00:02:06,751 --> 00:02:07,919 Good morning, Computer. 55 00:02:08,795 --> 00:02:10,713 Hey, why do all these planets have Xs on 'em? 56 00:02:10,797 --> 00:02:13,716 [computer] Because they are dying, as I am dying. 57 00:02:13,800 --> 00:02:15,802 You're not dying. You're a machine. 58 00:02:16,094 --> 00:02:18,054 [whistles] Look at that. Send me to Clown Planet. 59 00:02:18,138 --> 00:02:19,639 {\an8}-That place looks fun. -It's all right. 60 00:02:19,722 --> 00:02:21,933 -You don't think clowns are fun? -They're terrifying. 61 00:02:22,016 --> 00:02:22,934 Come on! 62 00:02:23,017 --> 00:02:24,894 -[computer] You come on. -[Clancy] You come on. 63 00:02:24,978 --> 00:02:26,062 -You come on. -You come on. 64 00:02:26,146 --> 00:02:28,857 {\an8}[computer] No, you come on. You come on, times a klobexia! 65 00:02:28,940 --> 00:02:31,985 -[Clancy, muffled] What's a klobexia? -[computer] I don't know. I made it up. 66 00:02:32,068 --> 00:02:33,570 [muffled] That's a good one. Simulate. 67 00:02:33,653 --> 00:02:36,156 [computer] Merging with Simulator in three... 68 00:02:36,239 --> 00:02:38,158 -[whirring] -...two... one... 69 00:02:45,832 --> 00:02:47,083 [Clancy] Whoa! 70 00:02:48,543 --> 00:02:52,297 Drone One, pull up some happy nature music. 71 00:02:52,964 --> 00:02:53,840 Not that. 72 00:02:54,674 --> 00:02:55,925 Yes! 73 00:02:57,051 --> 00:03:00,054 As I stare out at this majestic scene, 74 00:03:00,138 --> 00:03:04,225 I can't help but think of my sister, Sarah... 75 00:03:05,185 --> 00:03:06,019 [thud] 76 00:03:06,102 --> 00:03:09,647 ...who said, "Clancy, I'll loan you this money, 77 00:03:09,731 --> 00:03:14,194 but you have to promise not to spend it on a used Universe Simulator." 78 00:03:15,612 --> 00:03:18,072 And I said, "Sarah, first of all, 79 00:03:18,156 --> 00:03:20,200 I'm getting a really good deal on a simulator, 80 00:03:20,992 --> 00:03:22,410 and second of all, 81 00:03:22,493 --> 00:03:26,581 there are beautiful, wondrous worlds inside these old simulators, 82 00:03:26,998 --> 00:03:29,626 full of intelligent beings with stories to tell, 83 00:03:29,709 --> 00:03:31,961 and I'm gonna interview them, and put my interviews online, 84 00:03:32,045 --> 00:03:34,631 and make a bunch of money and pay you back, so suck my dick." 85 00:03:34,714 --> 00:03:36,716 [insect buzzing] 86 00:03:39,594 --> 00:03:40,428 [squeaks] 87 00:03:40,511 --> 00:03:41,679 [Clancy] Here we see... 88 00:03:41,763 --> 00:03:44,641 [mellow music droning] 89 00:03:44,724 --> 00:03:46,309 ...the cycle of life. 90 00:03:46,809 --> 00:03:50,188 -A beautiful clown baby, freshly born... -[giggling] 91 00:03:50,271 --> 00:03:51,606 [high-pitched, indistinct singing] 92 00:03:51,689 --> 00:03:52,565 ...from... 93 00:03:53,399 --> 00:03:54,525 his fruit. 94 00:03:54,609 --> 00:03:55,944 [giggling, squeaking] 95 00:03:56,027 --> 00:03:58,321 [Clancy] Many clown babies now gather, 96 00:03:59,280 --> 00:04:02,575 and singing their song of joy... 97 00:04:03,159 --> 00:04:07,121 to these noble, peaceful deer-dogs. 98 00:04:07,872 --> 00:04:10,458 "How are you doing?" they say in their way. 99 00:04:10,959 --> 00:04:12,877 Truly a scene from heaven. 100 00:04:15,713 --> 00:04:16,714 [Clancy] Whoa! 101 00:04:16,798 --> 00:04:19,676 -[clown babies screaming] -[Clancy] Stop! Don't eat 'em! Hey! 102 00:04:19,759 --> 00:04:22,387 What are you doing? No, they're clown babies! 103 00:04:22,929 --> 00:04:24,639 Why are you eating the clown babies? 104 00:04:25,932 --> 00:04:29,143 [panting] 105 00:04:29,602 --> 00:04:30,436 Shit. 106 00:04:31,980 --> 00:04:33,356 [Clancy screaming] 107 00:04:33,439 --> 00:04:35,775 Why does this always happen in this fucking thing? 108 00:04:35,858 --> 00:04:38,319 Can't there just be, like, one place where there-- 109 00:04:38,403 --> 00:04:39,279 [all screaming] 110 00:04:39,362 --> 00:04:41,281 -[deer-dog grunts] -[Clancy] Oh! Ah! 111 00:04:41,364 --> 00:04:42,657 [Clancy screaming] Ooh! 112 00:04:43,032 --> 00:04:43,908 Ooh! 113 00:04:46,619 --> 00:04:48,705 Just friends in a truck. 114 00:04:52,834 --> 00:04:54,627 [exhales] Hoo! 115 00:04:55,461 --> 00:05:00,049 Hey, you mind if I interview you for my video spacecast? 116 00:05:00,675 --> 00:05:03,011 -Um, okay. -You can talk? 117 00:05:03,094 --> 00:05:07,098 {\an8}[low voice droning] 118 00:05:08,766 --> 00:05:10,768 -[Clancy] Sorry, what was your name again? -Annie. 119 00:05:10,852 --> 00:05:11,728 I'm Clancy. 120 00:05:11,811 --> 00:05:12,645 [buzzing] 121 00:05:12,729 --> 00:05:14,939 -So sorry, I gotta set up for a second. -[Annie] Okay. 122 00:05:15,023 --> 00:05:17,317 Basically, this is just like a classic vid-stream. 123 00:05:17,400 --> 00:05:20,320 So excited! I've always wanted to do a spacecast. 124 00:05:20,403 --> 00:05:23,197 Annie, welcome to Midnight Gospel. 125 00:05:23,281 --> 00:05:24,699 This is... It's so cool! 126 00:05:24,782 --> 00:05:27,410 My first question to you is, um, are you worried? 127 00:05:27,493 --> 00:05:29,203 Because it seems like we're all about to die. 128 00:05:29,287 --> 00:05:31,164 {\an8}Hmm... It does feel that way, 129 00:05:31,247 --> 00:05:33,875 {\an8}but I've actually had a lot of deaths in my life. 130 00:05:33,958 --> 00:05:35,168 {\an8}If you've read my stuff, 131 00:05:35,251 --> 00:05:39,297 {\an8}you'd know my dad died very tragically of brain cancer... 132 00:05:42,300 --> 00:05:44,969 And then my best friend died after I had my baby. 133 00:05:45,053 --> 00:05:47,764 {\an8}-Good Lord! -Yeah, and I've just been somebody 134 00:05:47,847 --> 00:05:50,558 {\an8}that if someone in someone else's family is gonna die, 135 00:05:50,641 --> 00:05:52,226 they know I've already been through it. 136 00:05:52,310 --> 00:05:56,189 So, I've always been sort of summoned because I don't feel scared about it. 137 00:05:56,272 --> 00:05:58,858 And Neal, my partner, is a hospice volunteer. 138 00:05:58,941 --> 00:06:01,486 He's always coming home from people he's just visited. 139 00:06:01,569 --> 00:06:06,115 {\an8}And so, I thought it was funny, yeah, because there are so many young people, 140 00:06:06,199 --> 00:06:09,911 {\an8}and everywhere they went, it was like, "Death, death, death, rot..." 141 00:06:09,994 --> 00:06:11,496 {\an8}When you're a kid, when you're young, 142 00:06:11,579 --> 00:06:14,624 {\an8}there's a lot more worms involved in the discussion of death, right? 143 00:06:14,707 --> 00:06:16,376 {\an8}There are songs that go with it. 144 00:06:16,459 --> 00:06:18,836 Oh, my God, worm songs! I used to love worm songs, growing up. 145 00:06:18,920 --> 00:06:21,464 Classic Worm Songs of the Sixties. I had all ten albums. 146 00:06:21,547 --> 00:06:26,010 ♪ Down in the dirt we will fall ♪ 147 00:06:26,094 --> 00:06:30,181 ♪ 'Cause death makes a meal of us all ♪ 148 00:06:30,973 --> 00:06:33,643 You guys don't know this one. Sorry, Annie. Go ahead. 149 00:06:33,726 --> 00:06:37,855 {\an8}Oh, well, when I was young, my dad got so sick, 150 00:06:37,939 --> 00:06:42,860 and this is in the mid-late '70s, and you literally didn't mention death. 151 00:06:42,944 --> 00:06:44,487 -It was bad manners. -[Clancy] Hmm. 152 00:06:44,570 --> 00:06:46,614 [Annie] You were supposed to not notice, 153 00:06:46,697 --> 00:06:48,950 you know, that they weighed 70 pounds. 154 00:06:49,033 --> 00:06:50,368 Seems impossible! 155 00:06:50,451 --> 00:06:53,162 Because we were polite. We were children of the '50s. 156 00:06:53,246 --> 00:06:56,082 Neal's heard this a thousand times, but when my dad got sick, 157 00:06:56,165 --> 00:06:58,876 we had a really dear friend who also had cancer at the time, Susan. 158 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:02,046 They would sit outside the coffeehouse and Dad would say, 159 00:07:02,130 --> 00:07:03,923 "Susan, how's your cancer today?" 160 00:07:04,006 --> 00:07:06,259 -Really loudly, you know? -Nice. 161 00:07:06,342 --> 00:07:08,803 And then my dad would say, "Well, my cancer's..." 162 00:07:08,886 --> 00:07:11,514 Susan would say, "My cancer's okay, I think. Ken, how's yours?" 163 00:07:11,597 --> 00:07:13,724 And he'd say, "Well, I think I'm a little weaker." 164 00:07:13,808 --> 00:07:16,561 And my first novel was called Hard Laughter, 165 00:07:16,644 --> 00:07:19,856 and it was about laughing about this very hard stuff. 166 00:07:20,356 --> 00:07:23,734 {\an8}Then I got involved with reading Ram Dass's books early on, 167 00:07:23,818 --> 00:07:25,403 {\an8}and that took away a ton of fear. 168 00:07:25,486 --> 00:07:27,905 You're very... How old are you? Do you mind my asking? 169 00:07:27,989 --> 00:07:29,407 -Forty-four! -Are you really? 170 00:07:29,490 --> 00:07:32,452 God, you are so great-looking! You have beautiful skin. 171 00:07:32,535 --> 00:07:36,247 It's a blessing. There's no reason to feel embarrassed. It's a blessing. 172 00:07:36,330 --> 00:07:39,500 I think probably God just loves you more than other people. 173 00:07:39,584 --> 00:07:41,919 -Oh, you... That's-- -Yeah, that's how it works. 174 00:07:42,003 --> 00:07:43,713 That's the Christian path, yeah. 175 00:07:43,796 --> 00:07:46,466 {\an8}-There is a hierarchical love with God. -There definitely is. 176 00:07:46,549 --> 00:07:49,844 {\an8}But you may get a much nicer seat in heaven because of it, too. 177 00:07:49,927 --> 00:07:52,138 {\an8}Like, near the dessert table, or the cheeses! 178 00:07:52,221 --> 00:07:53,723 {\an8}-You're not fooling me? -No, it's true. 179 00:07:53,806 --> 00:07:56,267 {\an8}-[male dog] It's the cheese. -The cheese and the baguettes. 180 00:07:56,350 --> 00:07:58,895 [all laugh] 181 00:07:58,978 --> 00:08:01,731 [Annie] But, anyway, so I think it's scary. 182 00:08:01,814 --> 00:08:04,525 It's kinda tough stuff, but if I were young... 183 00:08:04,609 --> 00:08:08,696 Oh, my God, if I had had this information at, you know, 30 and 40, 184 00:08:08,779 --> 00:08:12,492 my whole life would have been quantifiably better, 185 00:08:12,575 --> 00:08:14,368 easier, much more free. 186 00:08:14,452 --> 00:08:17,079 [Clancy] The information you're talking about, acknowledging death 187 00:08:17,163 --> 00:08:21,375 -is an inevitable part of-- -Yeah, it's so freeing to accept it. 188 00:08:22,460 --> 00:08:26,172 Annie, that is so beautiful, and I hate to ruin this moment, 189 00:08:26,255 --> 00:08:28,299 but I'm gonna be honest, I gotta take a shit. 190 00:08:28,382 --> 00:08:29,467 Do you mind? 191 00:08:29,550 --> 00:08:32,011 -I just need to use the bathroom. -Oh! No, not at all. 192 00:08:32,094 --> 00:08:34,931 Um, how are we going to do-- 193 00:08:35,014 --> 00:08:36,849 I don't know yet. I don't know. 194 00:08:36,933 --> 00:08:37,808 [door opens] 195 00:08:41,229 --> 00:08:43,689 [Annie] I don't know what I'm supposed to do, right this minute. 196 00:08:43,773 --> 00:08:46,317 [Clancy] If you just put your head down first... I'm so sorry! 197 00:08:46,400 --> 00:08:48,027 -[Annie] Oh! No. The-- -[Clancy] I'm sorry. 198 00:08:48,110 --> 00:08:49,612 -[splashing] -[Annie] What-- 199 00:08:49,695 --> 00:08:50,821 Okay, how about this? 200 00:08:50,905 --> 00:08:55,076 Back out of the stall, turn around, and then walk into the stall backwards 201 00:08:55,159 --> 00:08:59,747 and climb up over the toilet with your back leg. 202 00:08:59,830 --> 00:09:02,208 -Just stick your hooves right there. -[Annie] Like this? 203 00:09:02,291 --> 00:09:04,961 -[Annie laughing] -Oh, my God, Anne, it's not funny. Please! 204 00:09:05,044 --> 00:09:06,254 [Annie] I'm trying. This is... 205 00:09:06,337 --> 00:09:09,423 All right, I think this is as far as I can go up. 206 00:09:09,507 --> 00:09:10,341 [Clancy sighs] 207 00:09:10,424 --> 00:09:13,803 This is gonna be a nightmare. This one's gonna haunt my dreams. 208 00:09:13,886 --> 00:09:16,764 Would it help if I sang a song and closed my eyes? 209 00:09:17,265 --> 00:09:18,307 [exhales] 210 00:09:18,891 --> 00:09:20,560 Yes, Anne. It would help. 211 00:09:20,643 --> 00:09:21,644 [door clatters] 212 00:09:21,727 --> 00:09:24,355 [Annie] ♪ You are my sunshine ♪ 213 00:09:24,438 --> 00:09:26,983 ♪ My only sunshine ♪ 214 00:09:27,316 --> 00:09:29,944 -♪ You make me happy ♪ -[toilet flushes] 215 00:09:30,027 --> 00:09:32,196 ♪ When skies are gray ♪ 216 00:09:32,280 --> 00:09:34,323 {\an8}My mom used to sing that to me when I was little. 217 00:09:34,407 --> 00:09:35,408 I can't do this. 218 00:09:35,491 --> 00:09:36,492 {\an8}Oh, no! 219 00:09:36,576 --> 00:09:39,161 -[Clancy] It's okay. Thank you. -[Annie] I can hum a different song. 220 00:09:39,245 --> 00:09:41,497 [Clancy] No, but thank you. I'm gonna hold it. 221 00:09:41,581 --> 00:09:43,874 [Annie] Okay, but that's not good for you. 222 00:09:44,667 --> 00:09:47,461 -Oh! Whoop... -[beeping] 223 00:09:47,545 --> 00:09:48,921 Sorry, gang. Have a great day. 224 00:09:49,005 --> 00:09:49,839 [beeping] 225 00:09:49,922 --> 00:09:52,466 [Clancy] When I cut you off, we were talking about accepting death. 226 00:09:52,550 --> 00:09:55,511 [Annie] Yeah. All truth is a paradox, and I hate that the culture tells you 227 00:09:55,595 --> 00:09:56,971 that you will get over it. 228 00:09:57,054 --> 00:10:00,308 I think that anytime anybody says the words, "You'll feel better in time," 229 00:10:00,391 --> 00:10:02,977 they should be sliced in the ass. 230 00:10:03,060 --> 00:10:06,188 My friend Joey Diaz told me that's one of the worst things you could do to a man, 231 00:10:06,272 --> 00:10:09,317 slice his ass, 'cause he can't sit down for weeks. 232 00:10:09,400 --> 00:10:11,527 [chuckles] 233 00:10:11,611 --> 00:10:15,656 {\an8}-Yeah, people who say that make me angry. -If I could let go of this right now, 234 00:10:15,740 --> 00:10:17,158 believe me, I would. 235 00:10:17,241 --> 00:10:21,078 I don't love being in this clenched, rashy state. 236 00:10:21,162 --> 00:10:23,998 Do you feel like it all the time? How often do you feel that? 237 00:10:24,081 --> 00:10:28,377 {\an8}The stuff that enlivens us and heals us doesn't come on bumper stickers, you know? 238 00:10:28,461 --> 00:10:30,338 {\an8}It's hard-fought. 239 00:10:32,173 --> 00:10:37,053 It takes death to help you let go. You know, go, "Okay, fine." 240 00:10:37,136 --> 00:10:38,179 Okay, fi-- 241 00:10:38,262 --> 00:10:40,264 {\an8}[grinding, splattering] 242 00:10:43,309 --> 00:10:45,227 -[Clancy] Oh, that's great! -[Annie] And that's... 243 00:10:45,311 --> 00:10:49,023 Yeah, that's sort of how I had my beautiful moment of surrender with God. 244 00:10:49,106 --> 00:10:52,610 It's, I say with enormous bitterness, "Okay, fine." 245 00:10:53,653 --> 00:10:56,238 [Clancy] I love that! That's so beautiful. 246 00:10:56,322 --> 00:10:58,699 -That's so pure and real. -[male dog] Good mantra. 247 00:10:59,450 --> 00:11:00,993 [Clancy] Yeah, that's a mantra. 248 00:11:01,327 --> 00:11:03,162 [Annie] Yeah, okay, fine. 249 00:11:08,584 --> 00:11:12,296 [Clancy] You know, so many artists I've talked to, particularly comedians, 250 00:11:12,380 --> 00:11:15,591 when they're confronted with the idea of doing anything therapeutic 251 00:11:15,675 --> 00:11:19,762 to help them with anxiety about death or just when they consider healing 252 00:11:19,845 --> 00:11:22,098 their broken, neurotic, fear-riddled mind, 253 00:11:22,181 --> 00:11:25,017 they think that it's gonna destroy their ability to be funny. 254 00:11:25,101 --> 00:11:28,270 Do you ever think, "Well, wait! Maybe if I encountered this early on, 255 00:11:28,354 --> 00:11:30,773 I wouldn't have been such a great writer"? 256 00:11:31,190 --> 00:11:34,443 [Annie] Well, yeah, um, by the time I was sober, 257 00:11:34,527 --> 00:11:36,112 I had four books out already, 258 00:11:36,195 --> 00:11:38,322 and I had a career, I had this whole thing. 259 00:11:38,406 --> 00:11:41,992 I still live in the county where I was born and raised. I'm 64. 260 00:11:42,076 --> 00:11:45,329 You know, everyone I love and need, everybody was there, 261 00:11:45,413 --> 00:11:48,207 so I was loved out of all sense of proportion. 262 00:11:48,290 --> 00:11:51,210 And I felt terror that if I stopped drinking, 263 00:11:51,293 --> 00:11:53,838 I would never write again, because I needed the misery. 264 00:11:53,921 --> 00:11:55,631 -Because I needed that edge. -[tires screech] 265 00:11:55,715 --> 00:11:57,717 -[Clancy] Right. -[Annie] And I... You know, and I... 266 00:11:57,800 --> 00:12:01,971 And I needed the shame, and I needed the raging sick ego. 267 00:12:02,346 --> 00:12:06,350 {\an8}And I felt that without those, I wouldn't be sufficiently crazy enough 268 00:12:06,434 --> 00:12:07,768 {\an8}to even be funny anymore. 269 00:12:07,852 --> 00:12:11,522 But that's one of the lies of the disease, you know, or of the ego, 270 00:12:11,605 --> 00:12:15,276 that if you are well and if you're happy, the jig's up. 271 00:12:15,359 --> 00:12:16,902 [Clancy] I think this, in Christianity, 272 00:12:16,986 --> 00:12:19,822 this is one of the really cool things about Christianity, 273 00:12:19,905 --> 00:12:22,074 -is that you get to use the word "Satan." -[Annie laughs] 274 00:12:22,158 --> 00:12:26,245 [Clancy] And I can't think of anything truly more satanic than that thought, 275 00:12:26,328 --> 00:12:30,207 a force in the universe telling you that should you become happy and healthy, 276 00:12:30,291 --> 00:12:32,710 then the thing you love doing the most will suck. 277 00:12:32,793 --> 00:12:34,044 -[male dog] Yeah. -[Annie] Right. 278 00:12:34,128 --> 00:12:37,173 -That's straight out of a... imp's mouth. -[male dog] I never told you this. 279 00:12:37,256 --> 00:12:40,926 It made me think about it. So, when I was 24, off I went to India. 280 00:12:41,010 --> 00:12:44,889 I met Ram Dass over there, and up I went to the Himalayas 281 00:12:44,972 --> 00:12:47,266 and finally met my guru. 282 00:12:47,349 --> 00:12:50,770 And I said, "So, how do I meditate?" I was thinking "mantra," "meditate." 283 00:12:50,853 --> 00:12:53,647 -I didn't know what I was talking about. -[Clancy] Yeah. 284 00:12:53,898 --> 00:12:55,983 {\an8}[male dog]] And he said, "Meditate like Christ 285 00:12:56,692 --> 00:12:58,778 {\an8}when he was nailed to the cross. 286 00:12:58,861 --> 00:13:01,405 He felt love, not pain. He was lost in love with everything." 287 00:13:01,489 --> 00:13:03,866 The next day, we went back. I got Ram Dass to say, 288 00:13:03,949 --> 00:13:06,410 "Well, how did he meditate?" You know, this famous story. 289 00:13:06,494 --> 00:13:09,622 And he just went back, closed his eyes, 290 00:13:09,705 --> 00:13:14,710 and tears came, and right then, we experienced Christ in that moment. 291 00:13:14,794 --> 00:13:17,713 And we were all Jewish, who had no relationship... 292 00:13:17,797 --> 00:13:19,673 I had never read the New Testament. 293 00:13:19,757 --> 00:13:23,135 {\an8}And then after, he used to say, "Did you read his book?" "Huh? Who?" 294 00:13:23,677 --> 00:13:25,554 "His book! Isa." 295 00:13:25,638 --> 00:13:28,015 -Which is "Jesus" in Hindi. -[Clancy] Yeah. 296 00:13:28,307 --> 00:13:31,936 [male dog] So, there is a tremendous teaching 297 00:13:32,019 --> 00:13:36,857 that we got around Christ in India before anything. 298 00:13:36,941 --> 00:13:40,778 It was Christ and Hanuman, they're the same. A service to man. 299 00:13:40,861 --> 00:13:42,613 -And so, anyway, I-- -[Annie] Yeah. 300 00:13:43,447 --> 00:13:47,326 [male dog] Um, one of the things that Bob, our friend Bob, said-- 301 00:13:47,409 --> 00:13:49,161 [female dog] It's pronounced "Bob-wah." 302 00:13:49,245 --> 00:13:50,996 -[male dog] Bob-u-wah! -[Clancy] Hey, Bob-wah! 303 00:13:51,080 --> 00:13:54,333 [male dog] So, you know, the thing she said that really struck me 304 00:13:54,416 --> 00:13:59,338 is about what this fabric of our lives is really about. 305 00:13:59,421 --> 00:14:01,382 [Bobua] Yeah, and just how we're connected to love. 306 00:14:01,465 --> 00:14:03,259 [male dog] Which is a tough word, because... 307 00:14:03,342 --> 00:14:07,513 It means romantic love to us here in the West, but the Tibetans, 308 00:14:07,596 --> 00:14:09,098 how they approach it, 309 00:14:09,181 --> 00:14:14,144 love means how happy you can make another person. 310 00:14:14,228 --> 00:14:15,062 [Annie] Right, yeah. 311 00:14:15,145 --> 00:14:17,189 [male dog] What the fuck? That kid took my eyeball! 312 00:14:17,273 --> 00:14:21,277 [Clancy] This is truly the thing that seems the most confusing to me 313 00:14:21,360 --> 00:14:23,404 about the concept of love in general. 314 00:14:23,487 --> 00:14:24,697 [male dog] Think of generosity. 315 00:14:24,780 --> 00:14:27,533 Think of when you start thinking about somebody else 316 00:14:27,616 --> 00:14:30,911 and wanting to give them anything. That's what it's all about. 317 00:14:30,995 --> 00:14:34,540 [orchestra tuning instruments] 318 00:14:36,208 --> 00:14:37,042 [bell chimes] 319 00:14:38,085 --> 00:14:41,881 {\an8}[tuning continues] 320 00:14:43,215 --> 00:14:47,219 -[electric guitar power chord playing] -[orchestra playing same chord] 321 00:14:47,303 --> 00:14:51,765 [rock music playing] ♪ Death makes a meal of us all ♪ 322 00:14:51,849 --> 00:14:56,228 ♪ Into the depths you will fall ♪ 323 00:14:56,312 --> 00:15:01,233 ♪ To the worms Your coffin is like a wet bar ♪ 324 00:15:01,317 --> 00:15:05,279 ♪ No matter how rich or how poor you are ♪ 325 00:15:05,362 --> 00:15:07,323 ♪ You all end up in the ground ♪ 326 00:15:07,406 --> 00:15:10,993 -♪ And the worms are not found ♪ -[laughing] 327 00:15:11,076 --> 00:15:15,581 ♪ They put you in a big black box ♪ 328 00:15:15,664 --> 00:15:20,377 ♪ And cover you up with dirt and rocks ♪ 329 00:15:21,128 --> 00:15:24,423 ♪ All goes well for about a week ♪ 330 00:15:24,506 --> 00:15:29,261 ♪ Until your coffin begins to leak ♪ 331 00:15:29,345 --> 00:15:34,016 ♪ The worms crawl in The worms crawl out ♪ 332 00:15:34,099 --> 00:15:38,437 ♪ In your belly and out your snout ♪ 333 00:15:38,520 --> 00:15:43,025 ♪ They eat the jelly between your toes ♪ 334 00:15:43,108 --> 00:15:47,655 ♪ They eat the memory Of all you have known ♪ 335 00:15:47,738 --> 00:15:53,202 ♪ They eat your heart They eat your soul ♪ 336 00:15:54,870 --> 00:16:01,835 {\an8}♪ It's the dawning Of the end of the world ♪ 337 00:16:04,213 --> 00:16:08,550 ♪ Bow down to the worms ♪ 338 00:16:12,429 --> 00:16:15,182 [Annie] I was thinking, also, what one of you guys said. 339 00:16:15,265 --> 00:16:17,810 -There's a story of a little girl... -[crowd screaming] 340 00:16:17,893 --> 00:16:19,895 ...who's scared to death to go to sleep in the dark, 341 00:16:19,979 --> 00:16:24,108 {\an8}and she keeps calling out for her mom, and her mom'll come in and say, 342 00:16:24,525 --> 00:16:27,778 {\an8}"Jesus is right here with you. Don't be afraid." You know? 343 00:16:27,861 --> 00:16:30,864 {\an8}And the child says, "I need someone with skin on." 344 00:16:31,365 --> 00:16:33,742 -[Clancy] Ah, yes! -[Annie] Right? 345 00:16:33,826 --> 00:16:35,744 And that's what we need here sometimes. 346 00:16:35,828 --> 00:16:39,289 Through love, all pain will turn to medicine. 347 00:16:39,748 --> 00:16:42,668 And Jesus says, "Everything I can do, you can do." You know? 348 00:16:42,751 --> 00:16:45,129 -[male dog] Yes. -[Annie] He had a very human death. 349 00:16:45,212 --> 00:16:47,089 -[Clancy] Yeah. -[Annie] He's in labor, you know? 350 00:16:47,172 --> 00:16:49,133 And God never leaves him for a second. 351 00:16:49,216 --> 00:16:51,176 You have not gone through labor yet. 352 00:16:51,260 --> 00:16:53,846 -It's a big "yet" for you. -[Clancy] It's a long time down the road! 353 00:16:53,929 --> 00:16:55,723 And that-- [Annie laughs] 354 00:16:55,806 --> 00:16:57,057 You're just in a process. 355 00:16:57,141 --> 00:17:01,270 It's contraction and release and breath and peace, 356 00:17:01,353 --> 00:17:04,940 and, "Oh, no, here, it's back!" 357 00:17:05,024 --> 00:17:07,359 It's okay. Remember the last one? 358 00:17:07,443 --> 00:17:10,112 You contract and you constrict and then you release... 359 00:17:12,031 --> 00:17:13,407 and you breathe. 360 00:17:14,366 --> 00:17:16,160 And it's what heaven will be like. 361 00:17:16,702 --> 00:17:18,454 -[Clancy] Beautiful. -[male dog] Absolutely. 362 00:17:18,746 --> 00:17:21,498 [Annie] A new pair of glasses, and they give you ice chips 363 00:17:21,582 --> 00:17:24,626 -and some very cold apple juice. -[male dog laughs] 364 00:17:24,710 --> 00:17:27,337 [Annie] Yeah, and then you know what comes out? New life. 365 00:17:28,088 --> 00:17:29,798 And that's what Jesus was saying. 366 00:17:29,882 --> 00:17:33,844 He was saying, "I'm gonna do this. Only love is holding me here." 367 00:17:33,927 --> 00:17:36,847 {\an8}If you were the only person on Earth, 368 00:17:36,930 --> 00:17:41,351 {\an8}Jesus would have died that humiliating and excruciating death 369 00:17:41,852 --> 00:17:45,314 because he was in labor, and he had this labor coach. 370 00:17:45,397 --> 00:17:47,649 You know? Mother God. 371 00:17:53,947 --> 00:17:54,948 [male dog] Hmm. 372 00:17:55,032 --> 00:17:57,284 -[Clancy] Beautiful. -[male dog] Beautiful. Wonderful! 373 00:17:57,367 --> 00:17:59,078 -Thank you, Annie. -[Annie] You're welcome. 374 00:17:59,161 --> 00:18:01,205 -[Clancy] Thank you. -[male dog] Thank you, Duncan. 375 00:18:01,288 --> 00:18:03,082 -[Annie] You're welcome. -[male dog] This is... 376 00:18:03,165 --> 00:18:05,751 [Clancy] Thank you! Are you kidding? Can't believe I got to be here! 377 00:18:05,834 --> 00:18:08,003 -[male dog] My favorite people. -[Annie] Thank you! 378 00:18:08,087 --> 00:18:09,505 -[man] So lucky. -[Clancy] Thank you. 379 00:18:09,630 --> 00:18:11,006 Duncan? Who's Duncan? 380 00:18:12,716 --> 00:18:15,886 {\an8}[blows horn] 381 00:18:20,349 --> 00:18:22,142 [buzzing] 382 00:18:26,855 --> 00:18:28,232 [gasps, grunts] 383 00:18:33,195 --> 00:18:34,071 [grunts] 384 00:18:34,947 --> 00:18:35,823 [grunts] 385 00:18:36,115 --> 00:18:36,949 [sighs] 386 00:18:40,244 --> 00:18:41,495 [sighs] 387 00:18:41,578 --> 00:18:43,122 [gagging] 388 00:18:43,205 --> 00:18:45,457 ♪ You are never gonna die ♪ 389 00:18:45,541 --> 00:18:51,380 ♪ Never, ever, ever, ever gonna die... ♪ [echoing] 390 00:18:51,463 --> 00:18:52,339 Hmm. 391 00:18:55,759 --> 00:18:56,593 Hmm. 392 00:18:56,677 --> 00:18:59,638 ♪ You are my sunshine My only sunshine ♪ 393 00:18:59,721 --> 00:19:02,599 [echoing] ♪ Sun, sun, sun ♪ 394 00:19:02,683 --> 00:19:04,852 ♪ Worms ♪ 395 00:19:05,686 --> 00:19:08,689 ♪ Do you hear them singing? ♪ 396 00:19:09,606 --> 00:19:13,735 {\an8}♪ Singing from the graveyards ♪ 397 00:19:14,653 --> 00:19:16,905 ♪ Worms ♪ 398 00:19:17,114 --> 00:19:20,659 ♪ Were the midwives in the garden ♪ 399 00:19:21,201 --> 00:19:26,206 {\an8}♪ Turn your mothers into flowers ♪